Looking down at my phone, exhausted at 1 AM, I saw the Twitter message. Somehow even outside the conference, DEF CON took my night of sleep.
DEF CON asked about my plans, and I overshared with HUGE walls of text. We went back and forth, and a few days later, the lead DEF CON Photographer reached out, I had an interview, and I became a “Goon” (Staff at the largest hacking conference in the world). From an outsider’s perspective, I can see why this doesn’t seem like a big deal. For the sake of this email, just go with me. It is a big deal for me. A massive deal!
With a channel with about 600 subs, how did this happen?
Honesty, I have no idea. It could be my passion, humor, or the fact that I made a video about two idiots (my dear dear friends) that forged a DEF CON badge out of a urinal cake
. 😂 Regardless, I am certain if I didn’t START my YouTube channel then Gooning never would have happened.
Fear is a crippling thing. Sometimes it stops us from doing stupid things, like eating asparagus because that vegetable is clearly poison (sorry mom).
Fear also stops us from putting ourselves out there. YouTube is terrifying. I didn’t realize that until I went to publish my first video, and two things kept stopping me from hitting publish and starting.
EVERYONE IS GOING TO JUDGE ME - No one cares. They are too busy worrying about their fears.
I AM GOING TO FAIL - OF COURSE I AM; I have NEVER done it before.
Success comes from failing. Many failures over time to fail better and improve. Rarely do we start with success or at least good success.
Think about programming. We keep trying and failing to compile or run correctly until it “magically” works.
We learn by making mistakes. Learning is a process. We need to do the reps. We need to be failing better constantly.
Pursue failure & Hack on,