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Pursuing Failure - I forgot how to be creative

Alex Chaveriat
Alex Chaveriat
I forgot how to be creative
We were born creative without shame or judgment.
If you are like me, you are immediately calling [email protected]#$ on that statement. But I will prove it.
Give a child a box of crayons. They don’t ask for directions or need them. They are naturally creative and inherently curious. They get lost in their own world while creating without judgment or care for the result. I am dumbfounded when I ask my daughter, “What are you drawing?” to get the response, “I don’t know yet.” - freaking amazing.
At some point, as we grow up, we get judged on our creativity and feel some piece of shame. Or we started learning what “good” art looks like and realized we don’t measure up. We start to condition ourselves to think we are not creative since we learn to judge our own work. Enough shame to maybe not try again, or we judge our own work before we even start.
This feeling of judging our work is worst when learning something new since you often copy other artists. Growing an imposter syndrome-like feeling since you are simply regurgitating other’s ideas. Austin Kleon wrote a book entitled, Steal Like an Artist; he calls out that all great artists steal. We collect and synthesize ideas, and those unique connections are naturally different and new works.
I want to have a childlike abandonment when it comes to being creative without judgment and sometimes starting without knowing my destination.
Get out a box of crayons and hack on,
😌 My Quote of the Week
“You might be scared to start. That’s natural. There’s this very real thing that runs rampant in educated people. It’s called “impostor syndrome.” The clinical definition is a “psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments.” It means that you feel like a phony, like you’re just winging it, that you really don’t have any idea what you’re doing. Guess what: None of us do. Ask anybody doing truly creative work, and they’ll tell you the truth: They don’t know where the good stuff comes from. They just show up to do their thing. Every day.”
– Austin Kleon, Steal Like an Artist
🤘 My Favorite Things This Week
Doing a live stream and this newsletter - There was something about writing this newsletter and doing a live stream this past weekend. I was doing it because I wanted to, I missed it. I feel like I am starting to relax and enjoy the journey, and not worrying about subscriber goals or sign-ups. I love the audience I have as I figure out what in the world I am doing. Thank you!
GrrCon Black Badge - I won a GrrCon Black Badge for solving a rather hard cryptography challenge (#4 This was a surprise since I solved it in April and didn’t claim the ticket since I already had one. This is the second GrrCon Black Badge and my third total with my DEF CON one. I think it is a chapter I am closing though this is a topic for another time.
Since @AlexChaveriat has solved every @GrrCON crypto challenge now. We are going to give another black badge for the 2nd person to solve Crypto #4.
🚽 Things That Are Gross
FOMO - Work has had a TON of “fires” and urgent projects. Since it is my company, I have a hard time prioritizing my own life at times and more specifically my hobbies like this newsletter and YouTube. This is another reason I am thankful for the live stream and this newsletter.
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Alex Chaveriat
Alex Chaveriat @alexchaveriat

Hey-o, I'm Alex, or Silk among the hacking community. I'm a hacker, information security geek, father, coffee snob, YouTuber, Chief Innovation Officer, DEF CON goon, and I pursue failure. Failing often and failing better each time. Every week I write about that pursuit, stories, and what I am learning on the journey. Hope you enjoy and hack on.

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